THE HUSTLAS OUTLOOK ON BEING SINGLE

AS I SIT HERE TODAY WONDERING WHAT MY LIFE WOULD BE LIKE WITH A CHILD AND A HUSBAND I JUST SEE TORTURE FOR ME. ITS NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN SINGLE ALL MY LIFE SO I KNOW THE DEDICATION IT TAKES FROM ONE PERSON TO ANOTHER TO MAKE IT WORK. SOME PEOPLE MIGHT SAY I'M BITTER BUT HELL NO NOT BITTER JUST CAUTIOUS. I WAS IN A TWELVE YEAR RELATIONSHIP WITH MY HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART ROCKY AND THEN WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH AN OLDER GENTLEMAN THAT I STILL LOVE TODAY (KINDA LIKE A FATHER FIGURE). I DIDN'T WANT TO MENTION IT BUT THIS WAS THE ICING ON THE CAKE. I MOVED TO YPSILANTI MICHIGAN WITH A CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE AND MET THIS GUY THAT HAD FIVE KIDS WHOA WHAT WAS I THINKING. AS TIME WENT ON I STARTED BECOMING A MOTHER FIGURE TO HIS KIDS AND HE STARTED BECOMING A CHEATING WHORE COME TO FIND OUT NOT ONLY WAS HE CHEATING BUT HE WAS CHEATING WITH THE BABIES MAMAS WTF!! THE MENTAL AND PHYSICAL ABUSE STARTED PLAYING A HUGE ROLE IN HIM TRYING TO CONTROL AND CONFINE MY BRAIN TO BELIEVE HE WAS THE ONLY FOR ME.

BUT ONE DAY I JUST STRIPPED HIS SAFE OF NOTHING AND BOUGHT MY TAIL BACK TO CALIFORNIA. YES BITTER IN THE BEGINNING BUT I TRAINED MYSELF TO LOVE MY SELF ALL OVER AGAIN AND NOT DWELL ON THE PAST BUT YOU KNOW THE PAST WILL ALWAYS FOLLOW YOU . I'M DETERMINED TO BECOME A BETTER WOMAN AND REALLY NOT SETTLE FOR LESS. I'M SINGLE BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE AND NOT BY OTHER CIRCUMSTANCES (LIKE NO ONE CHOOSING ME ) ARE YOU KIDDING GUYS LMAO! I CHOOSE TO HAVE MALE FRIENDS AND REAL MALE FRIENDS THAT APPRECIATE ME FOR THE ADVICE THAT I GIVE TO HELP THEM IN THEIR RELATIONSHIPS SO I LEARN A LOT FROM THE MALE SPECIES AND SOMETIMES THE THINGS THEY REQUIRE FROM A WOMAN MAYBE A LIL MUCH FOR ME . CLEAN THE DISHES, TAKE OUT THE TRASH, WHERE YOU GOING, WHEN YOU COMING BACK, WASH MY CLOTHES, FIX ME DINNER ,TAKE CARE OF MY KIDS( NOT OURS BUT MY OTHER KIDS) HUH!! OH AND PLENTY OTHER THINGS THAT I CAN GO ON AND ON ABOUT.

I HAVE ALL THE QUALITIES OF A REAL WOMAN BUT WHEN YOU LIVE IN CALI , MEN WANT YOU FOR YOUR OUTER APPEARANCE AND I JUST DON'T CATER TO THAT BS BUT I LOVE FOOTBALL SPORTS LOVE TO COOK MASSAGE MAYBE PICK YOUR PIMPLES LOL BUT THAT'S ABOUT ALL.

I COME TO HOME TO A QUIET HOUSE MAKE MY OWN MONEY TAKE CARE OF MY OWN BILLS AND LIVE A LIFE WITH NO QUESTIONS ASKED. I ENJOY BEING BY MYSELF LIVING MY LIFE AND WHOEVER JUDGES ME AND FEELS LIKE I'M LESS THAN A WOMEN BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE A STEADY MAN BELIEVE ME THERE ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT HAVE A MAN AND STILL FEEL LONELY AND UNAPPRECIATED. I KNOW I'LL NEVER BE SINGLE I HAVE FRIENDS AND FAMILY THAT WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY LIFE AND A COUPLE OF D'S THAT WILL NEVER GO ANYWHERE.

GOD PLACED YOU HERE BY YOURSELF AND YOU WILL EXIT BY YOURSELF

HOLLA

SHELLY